My days lately have been stormed with anger and frustration. As I try to make a name for myself and get through my university woes. I am met with many a challenge that I wish not to take part in. But how can one escape from her glazed eyes and devlish grin, how she pulls you in and sucks the very soul out of you. In hopes that your passion is enough for her to live a little longer.

I've felt like i've been locked away into a cage of pain. I want to do well and just let her flounder but if I do that I feel terrible and go back on my word of how I say I won't help her. I don't know right from wrong anymore and it scares me. Scares me to death makes me curl up and cry. I'm so exhausted from her, that shes more of a challenge then my own school work.

I hurt mentally and physically and find myself at a block in the road. You know I almost expect someone to ask me if I should take the red or the blue pill. Sounds entirely silly I know but I just want things to work out so I can sleep again and feel normal and whole. I feel so hurt and bothered by everything I jut wish things would work out... Just fucking work out already!